2 steps forward, 3 steps back

i'm back but i hope the fullness of that statement never becomes reality. hit up with one too many changes while one too many things stay the same. i thought i was ready for the dissapointment, for the awkwardness, for the change, for the facts. i thought i was ready to move on. i guess moving on looks easier when you know where you are going... when you are actually moving.

i wonder sometimes how much of this is how it really is or if its just this place. oh this place is painfully familiar even when i change things in attempt to block out past memories or lack there of. mistaking readiness with avoidance? that's not all of it though. i'm going to move on but does it have to be here?

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she's suprised and changed. they exists there in her mind like never before. a suspected lonely week turns into dashboard kareoke, quality time with julio and adventures with hives in hurricane lime lake. who knew that connecticut beauty would soar in unannounced traveling up to that innocent land of maple city.

she thinks the caffiene high is over after 2 double shots and 2 amps. don't put your drinks down just yet. that third day song takes a turn as he parades down the staircase. 30 second scream never sounded so pleasant after the best delta airlines decision of their lives.

it's been so long since i've seen the ocean and i think i should. he sings it at least 5 times. oh that holiday in maine... left my worries behind me while adding in some kanasta, the nubble and the color black. massachusettes hates us all though.. massholes.

he drives too fast. she screams his name. he's in control when he doesn't want the wheel... with the best cigarette of his life. thank god for traction. thank god for friction. thank god for high schoolers and a reason to live...