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i've been thinking a lot about this last year...wow...... the dorms...... the chapels....... the friends..... the dc...... about the dc...... i just want to cook for myself next year and drink real orange juice and tea.

oh the orange juice from the dc... i't isn't very enjoyable because you never know if it's going to be watered down or still concentrate. speaking of dc brings back also the memory of all the drinks on the right side tasting a little bit strange, like everything had slight remnants of hi-ci fruit punch in it. i've noticed though that the iced tea tastes bad not not only the ride side but on the left side too. highly unfortunate.

the funny thing is... i don't remember missing iced tea or orange juice at all while at school last fall and spring. but in high school, i actually drank them a lot at softball or with popcorn. i guess i didn't realize how much i missed having decent orange juice and iced tea until this summer. i had orange juice with actual pulp at my roommate's house quite a bit and after going on the camping trip, iced tea is all allen and i drink besides a little v8 splash.

so i'm going back to school soon... i'm missing the dole orange-pinapple-banana oranged juice and country time lemonade iced tea already... almost wishing i didn't have either of them this summer so that the taste woldn't be so memorable. but then again glad i did just to remember that taste better. i make no sense. i'm aware. just some random thoughts.

adventures in missing the point... not the book --> but read it

back in chi-town. feels good... in a way.

i enter upon harrassments from friends and family-- "i thought you died or something" and "how long are you in? a day?". hm. i'm not laughing.

question in sunday school?-- "what is the connection between justice and knowing god?" red flags and buzzers go off inside my entire being as the rest of the class sits in silence. why are we missing this? why are we missing Isaiah 58, James 1:29, Psalm 37, Psalm 140:12, Proverbs 29:7, Jeremiah 9:23-24... the list goes on in the hundreds. why am i missing it? who is this person of jesus? why don't i look more like him? why do we miss this problem of injustice? why do we fast as we "exploit our workers"? we go on thinking that we are doing so much when obedience is more honorable in God's eyes than a burnt offering any day. breaking the yolk of the oppressed is obedience? yes.

why are we so concerned for god's specific will for our life and if we are on the right longitude and latitude coordinates on the globe? his will is stated clearly-- love god. love your neighbor and i think if you look a little bittle deeper into that verse-- love yourself is in there too. i could spend a lifetime learning to love all three of those and probably will.

sometimes i feel like i think differently than everyone else and get set off by certain comments that most people wouldn't think twice. while coincedentally when confronted with the "3 deadly sins": profanity, "crude conversation" or homosexuality, they phase me little. i don't know if that's right or wrong, good or bad but maybe its not about that at all. maybe i take myself to seriously. hm. i'm not laughing am i?