missing out

it's hard to believe that i have only 14 days left at this place. my roommate nick moves in tomorrow. being here, i've poured myself into a life i never knew and i'm leaving it seeing how much more i have to know but won't...

i shall miss falling asleep to the sound of sirens and crying children, not so much the sounds themselves but the fact that they remind me of what is real.

i shall miss the conversations and complexities that make me realize that i don't have the answers, that stop me from speaking to quickly.

i shall miss feeling affluent and hating it.

i shall miss being the minority.

i shall miss the many more ways the jesus of uptown could have shaped and changed my heart and mind if i stuck around longer.