i've got no clever title for this one, not like the other ones are very clever either.

it's been a couple of intense days and i've got a few brief statements/insights...

• there's this unique thing happening in my heart... the more hurt and difficult a guy gets that i'm working with, the more i love him and the more i want to pursue him (i never thought this would happen)-- i'm thinking it has a lot to do with jesus.
• christ is a lot more powerful than i understand and than i really know what to do with-- there's a lot about this battle not being against flesh and blood but "against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places" that i really don't comprehend.
• i think it hurts God when i act like i don't need his help. i wonder how he feels after i sincerely have a good day with him and turn around and blatently sin against him...
  i now know what it must feel like to want something for someone more than they want it for themselves.
• jesus is a lot more patient than i am.
• if i'm going to go any further in this type of ministry, i really need to know him more