holding on

let it go. no, i can't. why not? it's mine, it hurts, i want control. it's not yours at all. oh no? no, i've got it... just give it to me. if i give it to you that means i'm trusting you to do what is in my best interest and i'm accepting what you do with it. and you can't trust me?-- i have your best interests in mind. they don't feel like my best interests. they are... believe it or not i work all things for good... no matter how stubborn you are. i don't want to be stubborn, i want to trust, i want to get it without falling down so hard. i know my child, i know. of course you do... then why can't i trust? i'll trust you at some point... ill give it up at some point. why don't you give it to me now? you mean choose to let go and save myself the pain of trying to do it myself until i'm forced to let go when i realize i can't???

...you know what... maybe i will.