naked and without shame

shame... a painful emotion caused by a strong sense of guilt, embarrassment, unworthiness, or disgrace...

left naked treading water in an ocean storm. resue-- necessary. shame-- inevitable. its time to send out an sos, this is known, certain, revealed-- fear. keep treading... keep treading...

the life boat is in view... waiving it down means secrets become exposed. "the ship went under and here i am to tell about it, naked".

in that nakedness i cannot bear to look at myself... yet cannot aptly see through myself either. when others gaze upon my exposure, the rawness, deficiencies, they merely wade in the shame that drowns me.

keep treading... keep treading... the clothes became hindrance when trying to stay afloat. they're goin now and there's nothing else to take off. in each layer removed, more real unaviodable this embarrassing rescue becomes. the longer i tread in the water, the more tired i become... closer to death and no further from shame. the life boat is in view... waiving it down means--