somewhere in between

he tells the hebrews "throw off the sin that so easily entanlges", and i say easily throw off the sin that entangles. some error in translation exists from the bible to my mind. actively waiting... for God to change my heart and mind seems a much better but harder choice to take over attempting to manipulate that change myself. waiting... while the familiar stays unfamiliar, even who i am. I AM not. isn't that just the point. this relization that who and what i am is completely outside of amanda. it isn't about me, it isn't. seeking to be delivered from self-centeredness in this self-centered world...