leaving town?
bolivia i missed you tonight. what a shame. lately i've been missing africa, kentucky, chicago, australia, costa rica, spain, egypt, russia and the dominican republic. the funny thing is i haven't even been to some of those places. someone once told me that you can't miss something that you never had or somewhere you've never been. i disagree. i think that you can. its rare but sometimes you can miss it even more.
maybe i haven't tasted or seen but i often know what could be and for dreamers that's enough. hate those expectations, don't you? "dreamin all the time is not foolish"-- are you sure? sometimes i'm not. it may not be foolish but i can think of a lot of other things it isn't too. but back to those places i've missed...
i miss them because there isn't enough time to think about them. sometimes i forget about them because the wall of my dorm room surrounds me. this past year has brought the term "taylor bubble" to a whole new level. sometimes i just don't have it in me to care about all the things close to his heart. i want to, oh do i... but it is too much. i miss those places because i'm just not able to go there or i can't go back or maybe even because other people i know can't go there or can't go back. who knows?
i do know this... part of me would change everything if i could do it again but at the same time too much of me would change nothing. for now i'll wait for airline prices to drop a bit and for my budget to increase until then... i'm makin' ends meat. sometimes i think thats how he wants it.
-- ruth haley barton says... "as strange as it may sound, desperation is a really good thing in the spiritual life. desperation causes us to be open to radical solutions, willing to take all manner of risk in order to find what we are looking for. desperate ones seek with an all-comsuming intensity, for they know their life depends on it."
desperation can take you for a ride... some radical solutions fail but what would have happened if the risk wasn't taken. i learned a lot from taking risks but at the same time i've learn that some risks burn you. too bad i had to touch that stove. the scar is still here. thank god fire refines but that intense heat... man... makes it too hot sometimes to even think about traveling to bolivia, spain, egypt, australia, russia, africa, kentucky, chicago or the dominican republic. sorry... i'm comin soon... but this summer i've already got plans.
maybe i haven't tasted or seen but i often know what could be and for dreamers that's enough. hate those expectations, don't you? "dreamin all the time is not foolish"-- are you sure? sometimes i'm not. it may not be foolish but i can think of a lot of other things it isn't too. but back to those places i've missed...
i miss them because there isn't enough time to think about them. sometimes i forget about them because the wall of my dorm room surrounds me. this past year has brought the term "taylor bubble" to a whole new level. sometimes i just don't have it in me to care about all the things close to his heart. i want to, oh do i... but it is too much. i miss those places because i'm just not able to go there or i can't go back or maybe even because other people i know can't go there or can't go back. who knows?
i do know this... part of me would change everything if i could do it again but at the same time too much of me would change nothing. for now i'll wait for airline prices to drop a bit and for my budget to increase until then... i'm makin' ends meat. sometimes i think thats how he wants it.
-- ruth haley barton says... "as strange as it may sound, desperation is a really good thing in the spiritual life. desperation causes us to be open to radical solutions, willing to take all manner of risk in order to find what we are looking for. desperate ones seek with an all-comsuming intensity, for they know their life depends on it."
desperation can take you for a ride... some radical solutions fail but what would have happened if the risk wasn't taken. i learned a lot from taking risks but at the same time i've learn that some risks burn you. too bad i had to touch that stove. the scar is still here. thank god fire refines but that intense heat... man... makes it too hot sometimes to even think about traveling to bolivia, spain, egypt, australia, russia, africa, kentucky, chicago or the dominican republic. sorry... i'm comin soon... but this summer i've already got plans.
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